Thursday, January 28, 2010

Prep for the Radnar

I have always admired the endurance of distance runners!  I love the power they seem to be able to tap into as they make their way up over hills, through cities and around lakes and rivers.  Constanly moving to a rythmn in their head and heart that carries them to the finish line. 

Paul was one of these people last year as he ran the Radnar and went on the 2 day trip that ended one of his life long goals.  I was envious and wished at the time that I could do the same, but I did not have the courage, energy or the vision to make it happen.  This year is different!  This year I will do something that I have always wondered if I could do.  I will run the Radnar and get that feeling of having done something hard over the period of several months in preparation. 

Running a race is similar to many things in life.  It takes consistantcey and determination.  It takes making that goal and then doing it day in and day out until at the last you are prepared to make that run from start to finish no matter how long it takes or how you feel at the moment.  I am excited and energized as I am getting started and making strides in my ability to do what I have never had enough desire to push through.  I am excited as my body respondes to me in new ways and with new demands and new energy as I make those little milestones that will make the big goal a possibility this summer.   I am making this a matter of a post so that I can be accountable to myself and everyone else out there.  I have announced that I am running the Radnar, I have signed up for it, and I am commited emotionally, physicially and energeticly to make this happen. 
On a side note, I have discovered that part of my inability in the past has been on account of my adreanals being extended beyond their healthy limit and as I have been fixing that I have a new energy that is amazing to me.  I have never in my life remembered when I have had more energy to do more and go farther for longer.  I have energy now like I did when I was a kid!  I am getting up at 5:30 am and going to the gym, going to school full time, coming home and cleaning, doing homework and hanging with my kids then going to bed around 10:30-11:00 pm without a blink in enenrgy!  IT IS AMAZING what I am learning about the human body!  I love it!!!  Knowledge really is power!

Saturday, January 23, 2010


Anatomy and Physiology is a relativly hard class, not because the material is hard, or uninteresting, but because there is so much that must be memorized.  I am amazed at the funny little names that they put on the projections, dents and holes in the bones.  There is a name for every bone in the body and then ten names about the parts and things on every single bone!!!  Oh and then there is the inside of the bones and who knows what there will be when I get to the joints, muscles and organs.  And I just thought I had to learn all the bones and muslces. 

Going back to school has been exilerating and wonderful but also a big stress.  I spend more time than I ever did in any other class in college doing homework for these courses.  two papers due in a week or two, a test every week in Anatomy and massages to do daily and memorize the actions to.  Oh and did I mention that I have to memorize all the parts on the feet that correspond to the organs of the body.  All of this and there are only 7 weeks left of the quarter then there are the finial exams that I have to remember all the information for and spit it back out.  My memory has never been that great, and now I am asking it to recall forever all the things I am learning in this compact 10 weeks - ( then a year).  It is a bit insane!  But, I love it! 

I wish I could be one of those eternal students that I use to see up at USU that would go to school for years and years.  That would be my dream!  I would love to get a masters degree or even a phD!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

BACK TO SCHOOL After 20 Years!

I have officially started school again! I am going to Myotherapy College of Utah full time and it is so much fun! Now that all of my children are in school full time it has been a bit of a time waster for me to be home all day with none of them here with me. I can only do so much laundry and go to the temple so much!!! So, I decided to go back and get a degree! When I was in college before I had a great time and studied what I thought I would love, but I didn't love it! What I would have loved to study was psycology, but I was too afraid that I would be found to be nuts and wouldn't reallly be able to help anyone anyway, so I did what was safe and what I could fail at.... Photography.

It is rather interesting that my grandfather Thatcher loved photography, but he was horrible at it. I think he really wanted to be good at it, but wasn't. I am that same person. My true calling in life is meant to be is in the compassionate service fields. My patriarticle blessing tells me that I will give compassionate service but when I was young I thought that meant being a nurse and I REALLY didn't want to be a nurse. I thought I couldn't do it, that I wasn't smart enough, and I don't think I could have then. It's funny, that now I would love to go back and study nursing! My interests have changed so much, or mayby I have just come to know myself better and therefore I have found out what I truly love. 40 years to find out what I enjoy???

I find it very compassionate that we live as long as we do and that we have time to find ourselves so that we can love others. I know many are able to give and express love from the day they are born, but not me. I have had to learn it, and it has been an amazing process, but a long one.

I really respect anyone who figures out what they love before they are 30 years old! But honestly, I don't think I would change a thing. I believe I took the route I did for a reason and it is perfect!